Struggling With Old Demons

Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body,” (1 Cor. 6:19-20)

I haven’t been blogging much.  A skeleton decided to walk right out of my closet to haunt me.  It was humbling to realize that this problem/weakness still exists.  I have been taking it to God, and He has opened my eyes to realize that the roots of the issue are still there.  Like a tick with it’s head still left under the skin, this is an issue that I have to deal with so that future problems don’t arise.

During my prayer time on Saturday, my friend Tina said that 1 Cor 6:19 was on her heart.   It occured to me that I had not realized that my body belonged to God.  I have been focusing so much time on realizing that my heart and mind belonged to God, I forgot about my body.   Since that night, I have struggled less and less with the demon of bulimia.  I have taken my thoughts captive and submitted them to God.  Although it feels like there is an all-out war going on inside, I have been successful in not giving into my desires to purge.  Also, I have been working on healthy eating habits.  God has really brought to my attention that he does not want anything to be a comfort or crutch apart from Him.

God is asking me to give up control.  I used smoking to control.  I, at one time, used bulimia to control. God wants me to let Him control.  After I quit smoking, I had to deal with the roots of why I had quit.  I started using food the same way.  Then old habits resurfaced, and I began using bulimai with whom I thought I had already won the battle.  Humbly I have asked God to help me deal with this issue.  And this week, He has really come through.

Because His Word is so good, here is another verse:

Matthew 6 ” Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 31 So do not worry, saying, `What shall we eat?’ or `What shall we drink?’ or `What shall we wear?’
32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

2 comments

  1. Hi. I stumbled across your blog through a google search and have enjoyed and identified with many of your posts. I just want to thank you for being so honest and open and unafraid of speaking truthfully.

    I pray GOD gives you the strength I know you seek daily in HIM.

    GOD bless, Sis.

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