Last night, I felt a strong leading to read 1 Timothy. Now, this is not my favorite and if it were a person’s favorite I would honestly think him strange. This is a controversial book because of verses in it about a woman not being allowed to teach and learning in silence, etc. Although I still find these verses in context and proper translation very respectful of women, those are not the verses on women that were highlighted last night.
Let me also give some context from my life… Newly married, I’ve been called to a place of giving serious thought to a conviction that the Lord gave me about a year ago. This conviction was to not prevent pregnancy. Whether this is a personal calling or God’s calling for the Christian church, I cannot say because I have no idea. But for me, I know that it is in God’s plan for my life, and that it will bring the greatest good out of me. But whether it’s one or 19, I think children serve a greater purpose for women than we know.
My best friend told me that “your whole life changes once you have a baby”. Here was this friend that used to always shop with me and have long self-portrait photo sessions with our phones after our girl dates. And now all the clothes that she bought and all the pictures that she took had her son as the focus. I found myself thinking… I don’t know if I want my whole life to change. Just being honest, I kind of enjoy my self-focus & vanity. Well? It’s true.
So anyway, I was reading 1 Tim last night and came across the following verse:
And I want women to be modest in their appearance.* They should wear decent and appropriate clothing and not draw attention to themselves by the way they fix their hair or by wearing gold or pearls or expensive clothes. 10 For women who claim to be devoted to God should make themselves attractive by the good things they do.(*or pray in modest apparell)
Then later, this verse:
But women will be saved through childbearing
Now, I had always tied this verse to the verse before it that deals with the snake and the garden. I assumed that the meaning had to do with salvation coming through Eve’s offspring because God had promised that salvation would come through her seed/offspring. But as I think about my best friend and every other mother I know in my life, I wonder if these two verses aren’t tied together also. I’m most certain they are.
It’s through having children that we are perfected, that we lay aside our vanity- our looks, shopping habits, and even photos of self. And we learn to live selflessly as Christ did-laying down our lives for another. So for women especially, our salvation and sanctification comes partly (largely?) through childbearing.